you skip to MY beat

2010-02-28T22:27:00.003+08:00

BLEARGHHHH

I wanna blog but I am sooo uninspired nowadays! Why? Why? Why?

Hmmm..on a brighter note, I am addicted to reading again. I think it has been quite a while since I visited the library. Currently reading a family series by Catherine Anderson. Love her books actually.

Must read more!!

Ok. Dah tak tau ape nak blog. See you all when I see you all.

I don't even know if people visit my blog anymore. Hah!

2009-11-01T16:21:00.002+08:00

IT"S BEEN AGES!!

Woah!! It's been quite awhile since I blogged eh?? Must have been damn busy and all. Tsk, tsk...so let's see, what updates do I have ya??

1. I got engaged recently
2. I have no more tuition! Yay!
3. I have more time to myself and for my friends
4. The fiance just left for Japan
5. Assignments from school has just been LETHAL
6. Went for a disastrous trip to KL with my darlings. Hahaha..

Okay, dah malas nak blog la. Some other time then..Toodles!

2009-09-21T16:03:00.002+08:00

A FIRST

Hey! Selamat Hari Raya everyone!! Hope you all are having a fantastic Hari Raya with your loved ones!! :)

Since I don't really have that many relatives, my family only visited 2 houses. This year, Hari Raya is especially great cos my lil' nephew is sooooo cute in his baju raya!! Picture will be up soon. Too lazy to upload now...

That brings me to wonder whether there will be a jalan raya this year with the jc gang. Hmmmmm....

Ouh, so back to where I was saying about the 1st day of Raya, since I only had 2 houses to visit, I reached home pretty early, about 4 plus, I think. So anyway, reached home, relaxed on my bed, smsing with the bf who did not really go out as well, and guess what? We decided to catch a movie!!

Yay! It's a first for me to go out as normal watching a movie when everyone else are visiting relatives. Hehehehe, so we caught the movie Inglorious Basterds. I think most of you know it's directed by Quentin Tarantino. I think most guys are BIG fans of that guy..me?? Not so la eh. I did not even catch Kill Bill.

But then, I thought the movie was pretty interesting. It definitely had a few hilarious moments in the show but I always thought Quentin Tarantino's movies are abit strange. I just don't know why, I just think they are strange. Haha.

So, there you go. My first day of Raya. :)

2009-09-08T21:26:00.003+08:00

WHAT TO BUY??

Okay, our 2 year anniversary is approaching.

The big question to ask.

WHAT AM I GOING TO GET HIM????

HELP ME LADIES!!

I already got him a pair of Crocs. Mind you, it is not those ugly crocs for guys. His has calf leather and it actually looks like a pair of boots on him when he wears them. It actually looks good on him!!

Apart from that, I wanna get him something else..

But I don't know what to get him la..

How eh?? How eh?? Hooooowwwwwwww??????????????????????????????

I'm going beserk la....

2009-09-02T14:43:00.004+08:00

3 SEPTEMBER 2009

Met the boyfriend yesterday to break our fast together. Since it was quite late and I was from tuition, we decided to go Jurong Point to have dinner. Ate at Thai Express and I ordered Tom Yum Hor Fun.

It's really really really nice but abit too ex la..

After which he rode like mad and we reached town within 20mins. Haha.

Got to try it out. It is so pretty. Excitingnye!! Upgrade hor baby?? You dah janji tau.... :)

Am meeting him again later. YAY!!!

2009-08-25T10:38:00.004+08:00

BABE, IT'S OKAY...

Babe, it's okay if you sometimes feel lost and you have no idea what you want to achieve.

I myself was lost, trying to find a meaningful and satisfying job. If you remember correctly, I took 2 years...or thereabouts to find what I really wanted to do.

I won't say I am now 100% sure what I want to do. Right now, I will just say that I am about 80% sure..

People always say that the grass is greener on the other side. It may or may not be true. For me, I will keep searching for a job that may not neccessarily make me happy, but MOST important is that I do NOT drag my feet to work.

To me, this is the most important indicator as to whether I will stay long in a job. If you remember correctly, I switch jobs like I switch on lights like that. One month tukar, one month tukar..hahahah...some call me a job hopper but to me, it is ultimately finding the right niche for myself. Others may perceive me to be that way, but hey, this current job is the longest I have stayed and not once have I dragged my feet to work.

This, in itself is a big accomplishment for me you know.. I used to hate going to work when I was working as a secretary. Kept crying in the office. Depressing lei..

But babe, remember, jobs are hard to find now. You may not neccessarily like what you are doing now but I believe that you can persevere. There is nothing wrong if you want to look for other jobs!! Go ahead!! Why not?? Ultimately, it is your happiness that matters.

One advice though, until you have gotten a new job offer, make sure you still have a source of income. That's most important....The worst thing one can be is to be unemployed and incomeless. I was that way since last year. It was really depressing to depend on other people for money...

Don't worry babe, we'll always be there for you...

2009-08-24T21:46:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN

So, the fasting month begins. I won't deny that I have been cranky the past 2 days, but I guess it is just my body getting used to the fasting.

One good thing though, I don't get gastric that often when I'm fasting. Must be because I am giving my stomach a break from all the digesting....

Anyway ladies, how has your Ramadhan been so far? Good??

I am proud to say that I went for the 1st night of terawih. Gosh! There were so many people. And so many people stayed on to do 20 rakaat and 3 rakaat of witir..

I love going to mosque to do terawih..the environment is just so different...

I remembered asking a friend to go to the mosque to pray with me. Last time, she always gave me excuses on how she has not learned her prayers properly. But I forced her. She was like a rusa masuk kampung gitu...

But, I am glad that I forced her. To show her that prayers are important when you are a Muslim.

I don't know how she is doing right now in terms of prayers, but I do hope she changes for the better in this aspect.

I always believe in the saying, "A family that prays together, stays together."

I am not trying to preach here and I admit that sometimes I myself stray from the righteous path, but I try, try my best to fulfill the 5 compulsory prayers every day. Getting to do the terawih will be a bonus.

So ladies, if we buka together, we go terawih also ok?? Love you all. Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan yang penuh berkat ini.

Let's all work hard to be good Muslims, do good deeds and alwyas remember Allah swt, cause we are NOTHING without him....

2009-08-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

Happy 23 months my dear....

No words can express how much and how deeply I love you...

To our future baby..you're all that matters...

2009-08-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

REALISATION

I suddenly realised that my blog has not been updated with recent pictures. Hmmmm..I must remember to take more photos.

I suddenly realised that the long weekend is almost over.

I suddenly realised that I am no longer worried about what people think of me.

I have come to the realisation that I don't tolerate hypocrites.

I have come to the realisation that sometimes, people are no longer friends because of a reason.

I have come to the realisation that I don't really care the reason behind her extending a hand of friendship to me. Cause, in my opinion, babe, we ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS. I remember you declaring it yourself.

Tsk. Tsk. Are you going back on your words, or are you actually taking back your words? Remember, I don't forget. So do you apparently right? I think that was what you said...

Oh well, I made a promise to myself not to dwell on my actions or the actions that you have done to me cause it was in the past.

Look forward, look forward!!

P.S I am waiting for you to ask me...

2009-08-09T16:42:00.003+08:00

A WEEKLY UPDATE...

Hiya girls!! And man, and to whoever else is reading my blog!! I know you still read my blog doncha?? Heheheh, although you are my silent readers, I appreciate the fact that you still bother to visit my blog after I have changed the address a few times..paiseh, paiseh.. hehehe, anyway, thanks for still visiting my blog ya?? Do feel free to tag me, although, no hate tags ok?? I don't mind making new blogger friends! I even found one through my blog!! Ida!! That's you!! :)

So anyway, first and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

I am happy to say that in my 24 years as a Singaporean, I do appreciate the fact that I am born one and I get to enjoy the benefits that come with being a Singaporean. Although we gripe and curse the government most of the time, we cannot deny the fact that the government has been doing an awesome job so far, and they do take care of us!! Remember the GST offset package? the Progress package?

I am glad that the government gives us some money. (I remembered spending the $600 bucks like nobody's business..hehehehe..)

On to other things..today the bf is supposed to perform for NDP right?? Unfortunately, he fell sick la!! So all those Saturdays standing in the hot sun has gone to waste cause he won't even be there!! Aiya..now El and Didi cannot take picture already la...too bad girls..another time eh??

P.S Please invest in a good sunblock. I can recommend a few that is suitable for oily skin, and BB creams are the in thing!! No more liquid foundation for me!!

2009-08-02T18:01:00.002+08:00

VITAGEN

I like drinking vitagen. In fact, I LOVE drinking Vitagen.

Buuuuttttt, NEVER drink Vitagen on an empty stomach or drink 3 bottles at one go.

Cause it will just give you gastric.

Right now, my stomach is protesting over the amount of Vitagen I have inside.

I have to go toilet soon I think....

P.S Complicated people have complicated lives. NEVER try to mess up a person's marriage. What goes around comes around right??

2009-08-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

IT'S TIME...

It's time I 'fess up right? Hahahaha..not yet, not yet, soon ladies.

And you will be the first to know, I promise. No declaration here though.

I promise I'll tell. Soon..

2009-07-25T12:33:00.002+08:00

INTENTION

I have no idea what your intentions are, but I'll just give you the benefit of the doubt.

But believe me when I say that I won't let you treat me the way you did.

You may be spouting your sincerity to me, but believe me when I say I don't trust you a single bit. I am pretty sure you are asking yourself whether it was a good decision that you made..hmmm...I don't know..and I am pretty sure you don't trust me either.

Maybe your intentions are pure and sincere, but really, are you sincere??

I have no idea. But like I said, I will just give you the benefit of the doubt cause I don't wish to analyse and judge people by the things they do or say. I may have done so in the past, but in this instance, no la, it's just not worth my time, so I will just let it be..

I am putting you at an arm's length. I have no desire to know what is going on in your life.

I am sorry, but that's just the facts of life. I have my own and I am looking forward to mine...

*shakes head*

I no longer want to burden myself with the past. What's done is done and there is no getting past it.

2009-07-21T21:03:00.002+08:00

A SHORT UPDATE

Errrrrrr..what to update eh?? Not much as usual. I am so sorry that my blog is getting even more of a bore to read each day...Paiseh leh..

But really, I am clueless as to what to blog about.

I don't really want to blog about work cause I have decided that it's off limits. I don't even visit my blog from my laptop at work. Paranoid, I know. But I know they can track what websites I have been visiting, so better play it safe.

Other than that, life is same old, same old for me. Nothing new or exciting going on at the moment. All I know is work, tuition, work, tuition, work and more tuition.

The other day out of sheer desperation, I almost blogged about my beauty regime, what stuff I use on face etc, etc, but then, I realised that I don't even bother putting on make up to work cause it is pointless when the make up just melts off after a few hours of handling errrr...non-adults. And my face has many flaws, so whats the point of talking about my beauty regime when I barely take care of my face??

Sigh, so after much deliberation, I decided not to go with that topic.

So, what else is there to talk about??

Oh yeah!!!!! I have a new cat, her name is HITAM.

My mom named her. And surprise, surprise, she is super black from head to toe with only a white on her chest.

Well, now I have 3 cats. Kekekekeke..

Okla, lazy to update some more la. I'll talk about HITAM more on my next entry ya?? At least something to write about hor......

2009-07-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

SHOCKING SMS

Surprise, surprise. Received a sms from the ex-friend again yesterday.

Again, as usual, I have absolutely no idea what she means by her sms. Is she trying to be friendly? Is she just asking out of curiosity? Who knows?

But I still don't know what to say to her. It is simply too awkward. Too much has happened between us for me to pretend that everything is alright between us. In reality, I think we both know that it won't be the same again.

So, if you are reading this, I am sorry, I really have no idea how to even reply your message. Sorry.

2009-07-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

REMEMBERING...

Sometimes, I really miss her. But after all that happened, it is not that easy to move on. It is not easy to forgive.

Even though we may have forgiven each other, it is that awkwardness that we will feel if we still remain friends.

I would have no idea what to say to her and I would not know if I could ever trust her again.

I want to reach out to her sometimes but I fear that she will make fun of me like she did before.

I want to apologise to her in person but I fear that there is something in me that will still hold a grudge against her.

I want to remain friends, but I fear that she is no longer the person I once knew....

2009-07-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

NO MOOD

I seriously have no mood to blog nowadays. Plus, with work getting so busy and my schedule packed with tuition after working hours, the only time I have to blog is during the weekends, provided that they are not eaten up by tuition itself. Sigghhhhh.....

I have considered closing this blog, but I think for now, I'll just let it be. If I don't blog for months and months, then I will probably close it down.

Other than that, I also have no idea what to blog about. No inspiration also. I think ah, I have to try Google man. Seriously. Hurhur.....

2009-06-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE

Okay, if any of you have NOT read the book, PLEASE, PLEASE go and get it!!

The movie trailer's out!! Can't help feeling that they should have casted Orlando Bloom as Henry though. Eric Bana..errr...macam tak kena ah..

I bawled my eyes out reading the book and I just read it for the second time a few weeks ago cause the story can be confusing. And I finally figured out the ending, as in what actually happened to Henry. Hurhur.

The way Henry disappears in the book and in the movie caught me by surprise though. Reading the book, I always envisioned Henry disappearing with a "POP!". You know, like a magician like that. Hahaha..

But still, I am excited to see the movie!! But why ERIC BANA??

2009-06-22T15:52:00.002+08:00

DO YOU??

Sometimes I feel that you don't care enough. That you chuck me away on one side after you get what you want.

Sometimes I feel that when I say something, you don't listen. You just get defensive and say that I am the one who does the same thing to you.

I tried to make my point but you don't really seem to care.

So I shall not bother la.

I feel very neglected today. Must be the period blues...

2009-06-19T20:44:00.004+08:00

THE SIMPLE LIFE

The day started at 7.45 am. Next destination, Mustafa Centre.

Chappati and teh for breakfast. Super delicious.

Getting the essentials and shopping at Mustafa. Took about 2 hours.

Me shopping like nobody's business. Getting important stuff la.

To AMK to take a break. Playing the flute and piano. Playing Resident Evil 3.

Having fun and spending quality time together.

Me, trying on my future.

Soto Ayam, Rojak Mama and Soyabean drinks.

Off to Orchard to look for my Yak Pak at Heeren.

Smelly farts while I was looking at a particular bag. HEHEHEHEHE....

Toilet.

Him fibbing that his hair on the arm is gone and that means I have to do what again baa??

Baaaa Buuuu Biiii...."take out the buuuu," he says. Kongsam nak mampus.

His hand looking strangely bloated infront of the mosque.

To Bangkit for contacts.

My dearie paying it for me :) Thank you soooo much my dear...

This is my simple life with my simple guy....

P.S GIRLS!!!! Bile nak jumpe lagi ni????

2009-06-16T12:04:00.002+08:00

JUST PUT THE BLAME ON ME

It is so easy to accuse another of any wrongdoing she/he has done.

It is so easy to point the finger and get angry in an instant.

But it is so hard to forgive a person for what he/she has done to you.

I still remember clearly what happened late last year.

All the cat fights, the bitchiness.

When I look back, I realise I should not have bothered confronting her. How silly I was. How I stooped to the most childish level.

Cause, now I realise that she was too much of a coward to tell it to my face and instead wrote about it in her blog.

Don't get me wrong, I am no longer angry or upset, but I realise the foolishness of the situation.

Sometimes, I wonder, if I had not confronted her or asked her about that particular entry on me and my friends, whether we still would have remained friends till today.

But then again, things happen for a reason.

I read her blog just now, and apparently she is going through the same situation of telling another person she is disappointed in them.

Good luck to you girl. If you ever read my blog again, just want to say that from my point of view, it's better you tell the person what you think of herby telling her face to face rather than keep it all in and talk about the person in your blog, cause that just shows how much of a coward you are and you naively let her take advantage of you. In that aspect, you still have not changed and you still have not learnt your lessons.

But then again, maybe you are just you and you do not have the heart to tell it to her face. Who knows right? I no longer know who you are.

I remember the sms you sent me saying that it took you along time to forgive me. Well, just so you know and realise, I too, have something to forgive you for. I have forgiven you for what you said about me and my friends, but I have not forgotten. I was upset back then because I could not believe you had the nerve to implicate my friends and you never tried to understand me. You say you are the bigger person than me, but sadly I disagree with you, cause at least, I NEVER called YOUR friends names.

Oh well, that was all in the past. And I have never told you how you have disappointed me, but it does not matter now, cause we are no longer friends.

I wish you all the success in life.

2009-06-15T11:45:00.006+08:00

21 months

Happy anniversary to you and me. Thank you for wishing me. I thought you had forgotten.

Well, the journey to 21 months has not been smooth sailing all the way. I am sure that most of you ladies know that it IS hard work to make a relationship work.

A relationship is not about one person dominating the other. It is, at least to me, a partnership between 2 people who care, love and respect each other as individuals.

When you go into a relationship, you commit yourself to it. Sure, I have heard people say not to give 100% of yourself to your other half cause you just end up being consumed by the relationship and forgetting who you are.

True, to a certain extent, I admit that sometimes I give too much of myself in my relationship. However, with time, I try not to lose myself in the process. The joys of being in a relationship involves me giving myself whole-heartedly to my other half until he really knows me inside out.

At the same time, there are times where a couple just need their OWN personal time; ME time.

Being in a relationship does not mean forsaking your friends for your other half. That is seriously unhealthy. Honestly, having girl-time with your girlfriends is important.

When you have been together for a period of time, the "honeymoon" period starts to fade away. You start getting too comfortable with each other. In some instances, you start getting complacent and you may start taking each other for granted. The lines that you once drew about being respectful to one another sometimes gets blurry as well.

In some instances, you lose sight of what you once had with your other half. Cracks start to appear and you start seeing the other sides of one another. In some instances you may accept their flaws, even love them for it, but in some instances, you just cannot tolerate those flaws.

There are times when you start to drift apart and that's when the communication really breaks down. In some instances, deep down, you know you really love your other half but sometimes, you forget that the relationship needs some romance to keep the spark alive again.

In some instances, once a couple gets too comfortable with each other, they don't believe in romancing their other half. I find it sad if couples think that way.

For me, roamnce is really important. Even buying a little trinket (something romantic) once in awhile shows that you still desire your other half. As a girl, it is important that I feel loved and pampered. Wouldn't you want to feel the same way too?

Any girl who is in a relationship and says that she doesnt need all this is, in my opinion, IN DENIAL.

Any girl would love to be romanced.

It is also important to appreciate one another for the simplest gestures they do. Even fetching you, sending you home, or even buying vitamin pills mean something to me. To show appreciation, I feel it is really important I say "Thank you" to my other half cos it shows that you appreciate what your other half did for you.

In return, they will feel gratified that you don't take them for granted. This is one of the things I find so important in a relationship. Saying "Thank you". How many of us have forgotten to say such a simple phrase? I admit I may have forgotten at times but I try to make it a habit.

Being in a relationship, there are bound to be arguments. Sometimes having arguments are healthy for relationships cause it shows that you care. However, if your fights are too frequent, it could mean something is amiss in the relationship. Don't get me wrong, I am no relationship guru, but I am basing what I say in reference to my relationship with my other half as well as errr... a "person" I used to know with his/her turbulent relationships with the ex-es.

Don't get me wrong, I learned a few things from this person, and for that I have to give my thanks.

Communication is important. Communicating does NOT just mean talking. It also means being able to LISTEN to one another. When your other half says something you may not neccessarily like at first ( I know I don't), it is okay to be upset. However, I realise that sometimes, that yeah, maybe I am behaving in a way that is bad for the relationship. I try and see it from his point of view. If I have upset him in any way, it is important I aoplogise.

Apologising. Many of us don't do it often enough. I am guilty of this as well. When we have arguments and I am in the wrong, I find it hard to say the words, "I'm sorry". So does my other half. Sometimes I think we don't apologise enough to each other.

Knowing when to give and take is essential. Yup, I can be really stubborn at times and want things done my way. There are instances where my other half relents and there are instances where he puts his foot down firmly. The same goes for him. Admittedly, there are outcomes which I don't neccessarily desire, but I eventually get around to accepting it. Oh well, who said realtionship is a bed of roses anyway?? The thorns are there for a reason isn't it?

P.S I do love you, you know..... :)

P.P.S This entry is just based on my own personal opinion and not directed to any of my friends that I know from this blog, so no offense should be taken.

P.P.P.S Feel free to leave any comments. No hate tags please. Any of those WILL be deleted!!

2009-06-09T14:47:00.004+08:00

T & Co.

Too good to be true la. I came across this website in Singapore and they sell T & Co. jewellery like bloody cheap la. Apparently they buy directly from Hong Kong's T & Co. distributor. BUT their privacy policy stated that the jewellery are exact replicas and imitations of T & Co AND that they do not represent T & Co. in any way. So I am confused by what they say. So are they selling imitations or are they selling REAL T & Co. jewellery direct from the distributor?

Apparently when you order, they deliver it with the T & Co blue box and the pouch as well. However, there will be no invoice as the jewellery is not authenticated by T & Co. shops. Hmmmm..how?? Want to believe or not??

I kinda think that these are the real deal. As in T & Co buys it from their Hong Kong distributor and BECAUSE T & Co. is like a MEGABRAND, they authenticise (is there such a word?) their jewellery and sell it for like hundreds of dollars. I don't know which to believe..but I am so, so tempted to buy. Damn!!

2009-06-07T20:37:00.006+08:00

BABY, I'M NOT MAD

I miss you. I'm sorry. Can we make up now??

2009-06-05T13:43:00.009+08:00

PICTURES!!!

Finally, I have the time to post pictures up as I am free!! No more meetings until the last week of June!!! Yipee!!

That gives me the luxury of spending 2 weeks wherever I want and whatever I want!!

Hehehe...okay, some of the pics were taken like weeks ago, and I am so sorry cos I haven't really been taking pictures during my outings. Hmph. Should make more effort la eh.

Other stuff, let me see..okay, I ordered this Queen Helene Mint Julep Masque online. I have a tendency to order cheap things online nowadays. Well, a bottle costs about $12.50, in Sing dollars. You cannot find the masque at normal pharmacies in Singapore cos they don't supply it here.

I've heard really good stuff about the masque, so as usual, I went online to find whether there are people who bought from the US and sells it here. And I found one!! I'm expecting to get my masqe today or tomorrow!! So excited to try it out!! Hopefully the results are as good as the reviews ya?? Once I have tried it out and if any of you are interested to purchase it, I can give you the link of the Singapore supplier I bought it from. Free postage too!! Heh. Okay, enough yakking, some pictures up next!!

me and the bf..who else right??

hahaha, very cheesy, I know. I made him do it!!!

and again!!

and my cute lil nephew!!!

2009-06-04T23:39:00.006+08:00

WELCOME, WELCOME!!!

Hahahahah!! Welcome to my new blog ladies!! This time I have opted for a simple layout!! Yay!!

I am pretty happy with the design that's why. I have finally decided to do something about my new blog and I have done the editing here and there.

My new blog is no longer private..I have decided to make it open to public again.

Hopefully no hate taggers or drama mama la okay this time? Heh. Okay, that's it for today. Will upload pictures in my next entry.

2009-05-03T22:46:00.010+08:00

~ WHY THE CHANGE?? ~

Si Az ni kan, asik asik tukar dia nye blog address.

Why, some of you may ask?

Cause for me, it represents a new start to my life.The start of a new career and the good (and bad) things to come later this year.

I pray and hope for everything to be smooth this year and for plans to materialise.

A new blog skin and address is sort of my way of starting things anew and moving on with my life.

I'm reborn again!! Hahaha. so lame..

2009-05-01T15:17:00.004+08:00

++ MIND BOGGLING ++

It's mind blogging to see how far I've come since last year. It's surprising to see some of the friends you make and lose along the way.

It's amazing to see that I've had a new perspective and a new direction in life.

As I get older, I find that I get mellower. My circle of friends grow smaller cause now I know whose company I actually prefer.

I lose a "close" friend, but I realise that I am better off without her. We are better off no longer being friends.

I find that as I grow older, I am indeed more mature. I think things more thoroughly and I start worrying about finances and savings. Okay, that is a DEFINITE sign that I am getting older. Damn.